Turning 40....The Ramblings Of An Old Woman

Yep, I just turned 40.......just typing that number sends me into a tailspin. I have to admit that I still can't believe that I am actually that old. Remember, when you were younger.....30 seemed old but 40, well, that was ancient. I don't feel 40- whatever that would feel like- but I do feel that I should feel older. Did you follow that??? You are probably wondering why the number is such a big deal...wish I could tell you....because it is just a number. A very BIG number. It just feels weird to know you are 40 and not feel like you are...there is a huge disconnect here.

However, even though I am, ah, 40....... life is so very good. God has been gracious and I thank him for all the gifts he has lovingly given to me. Can't say that I deserved any of it seeing as how I made quite a few whopper mistakes in my life but thankfully he doesn't keep score. Instead, he continues to bless me....in his own timing. Some of His most perfectly orchestrated blessings in my life......

- my David. Went to school together our whole lives, lost touch for 10 years, wrote him a letter, he called and well, we celebrated our 11th anniversary this year. He is my very best friend, a loving dad, a hard worker and the best person I know. I am honored to be his wife.

- my Olivia. Our first baby and our only girl. She is sweet, kind, emotional and lovely inside and out. She is a great friend and helps anyone who needs it. The Lord gave her to me to remind me to be kind, to keep me sane and to have someone to have wonderful "girl time" with.

- my Jackson. Our second baby and our first son. He is sweet, crazy, thoughtful and is constantly making noise. It drives me batty. The Lord knew my life would be too quiet without him and besides there is nothing like the love of a son for his mommy.

- my Lucas. Our third baby and our second son. He is the baby I prayed to have for 4 years. The baby I gave up on having.....the Lord gave him to me when I would have the time to care for him and his beautiful blue eyes best. He is sweet and cuddly and I can't get enough of him.

- my family. My parents, in-laws, brother, sista's, and brother in laws......their love and support is unconditional and I am pretty sure that no one else in the world could have a better family than me!

- my friends. I am blessed with a great many friends and they all are so different. But they all are the same in that they are strong, loving, caring women whom I admire and feel privileged to know.

So with all that said..... I may be 40 but life is grand and besides, it's just a number right???